life seen thru the eyes of a neurotic 20 something gal in search of something, nothing, and everything....but not all at once...I think.

Thursday, December 08, 2005

cigarette-less in houston

I bought Madonna's new cd the other day--confessions on the dance floor. I LOVE IT. Nevermind that she's a few marbles short somedays, this cd rocks. I've been taking it to the gym with me and before I know it I am finished working out. Anything that makes time fly when you are on the stairmaster or pushes you to work out harder is amazing in my book.

It is now 18 days and counting since my last cigarette. This is getting harder and harder each day. I thought it was supposed to get easier as time passed not harder. I have fantasies of lighting up and the first inhale. I am NUTS. Ugh, this sucks. I wonder if it ever gets easier. The world will still spin without a cigarette but damn it would just rock if I had one.

Sunday, December 04, 2005

no worries today

Nothing like having a day off. No need to hit the snooze. No need to feel rushed. It's wonderful. Today is a champion kinda day. I have been 2 weeks without a cigarette and I think the worst is when a smoker gets near me and puffs away. This is so lame but I really want to slap them and grab their cigarette and smoke it myself. I think I am demented on some level. Otherwise, the gym thing and gum is going along. I feel better than I have in a really long time. Now if I can just keep this momentum going---I would be great.